Doubt26

Everybody knows that the dice are loaded
Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed
Everybody knows the war is over
Everybody knows the good guys lost
Everybody knows the fight was fixed
The poor stay poor, the rich get rich
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows that the boat is leaking
Everybody knows that the captain lied
Everybody got this broken feeling
Like their father or their dog just died
Everybody talking to their pockets
Everybody wants a box of chocolates
And a long-stem rose
Everybody knows

Everybody knows that you love me baby
Everybody knows that you really do
Everybody knows that you've been faithful
Oh, give or take a night or two
Everybody knows you've been discreet
But there were so many people you just had to meet
Without your clothes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows
Everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

And everybody knows that it's now or never
Everybody knows that it's me or you
And everybody knows that you live forever
When you've done a line or two
Everybody knows the deal is rotten
Old Black Joe's still picking cotton
For your ribbons and bows
And everybody knows

And everybody knows that the Plague is coming
Everybody knows that it's moving fast
Everybody knows that the naked man and woman
Are just a shining artifact of the past
Everybody knows the scene is dead
But there's gonna be a meter on your bed
That will disclose
What everybody knows

And everybody knows that you're in trouble
Everybody knows what you've been through
From the bloody cross on top of Calvary
To the beach of Malibu
Everybody knows it's coming apart
Take one last look at this Sacred Heart
Before it blows
Everybody knows

《寻文启事》落魄天x老板毛 or 司机贺x总裁毛

这是一条寻文启事~~


贺天家道中落了,莫关山辍学后去了外地,开了几家饭店已当上了老板。

莫关山多年后回到S市,蛇立接莫关山到自己的酒店招待他。两人去后门抽烟的时候发现被人群殴的贺天。落魄消瘦的贺天…

蛇立告诉莫关山:贺天家几年前家道中落了,贺天的爸爸被关进去了,贺天的哥哥逃到外地去了,贺天被大学开除了。当年贺家势力大,现在树倒猢狲散,全都落井下石,没有人肯给贺天一个工作机会。他现在就靠老女人生活。这种人和过街老鼠一样,你最好也不要管他。

莫关山瞥了一眼,跟着蛇立继续回去喝酒。

晚上喝完,莫关山借了蛇立一辆车准备回住所。看见还倒在泥水里的贺天,很反感。犹豫了许久,踢了贺天一脚,说:会开车么?送我回家。

贺天挣扎着站起来,莫关山把钥匙丢给他,又看到贺天一身的污迹,啧了一声:妈的,还得给蛇立洗车。


原文就断在这里了啊!!!好虐啊有木有!!!

大概是一年半以前,蛇立刚出现,还没有黑化的时候一位大大写的文,然后好像没有继续写了。或者我错过了…

总之没有看到结尾,一直都是我心里的一个结。之前在群里问,都是没有看过,不知道Lofter上会不会有小天使看到过~

有知情人士请务必告诉我是哪位大大写的!~~ 感激不尽!!~


本来想自割腿肉,把这篇补个糖出来,可是好像又算盗梗抄袭什么的……


原谅我占个tag吧… 这个心结真的哽的我好难受啊~ 虐死我了!!~


Didn't even really wanna go
But if you get me out, you get a show
There's so many bodies on the floor, so
Baby, we should go and add some more
Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down, d-d-down, down, down?
Down, d-d-down, d-d-down, d-d-down, down, down?


Everywhere I look are peoples' hands
Thrown up in the air to help them dance
Come on, baby, catch me if you can, I
Know you don't have any other plans
Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down, d-d-down, down, down?
Down, d-d-down, d-d-down, d-d-down, down, down?

Are you
Down, down, d-down, down
Are you down
Down, down, d-down, down
Are you down, are you down, are you d-d-d-down
Are you down, are you down, are you d-d-d-down, are you
Down

You know we could put them all to shame
Now isn't the time to play it safe
Isn't this the reason that you came, so
Baby, don't you let it go to waste
Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down, d-d-down, down, down?
Down, d-d-down, d-d-down, d-d-down, down, down?


Every single thing is feeling right
Started as a quiet Friday night
I don't really think that we should fight this
What if we don't stop until it's light?
Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down, d-d-down, down, down?
Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down, d-d-down, down, down?

Are you, down, down, d-down, down
Down, down, d-d-d-down
Are you down, are down, are you d-d-down
Are you down, are down, are you d-d-down, are you

Are you, are you, are you d-down-down
Are you, are you d-d-d-down, are you

Down, down, d-down
Down, down, d-down

Are you down, are down, are you d-d-down
Are you down, are down, are you d-d-down, are you

Are you down, are down, are you d-d-down
Are you down, are down, are you d-d-down, are you

Down?

生·活

《边缘》放了好多的私心,藏了很久很久的私心。
自己曾经整夜整夜的坐在26楼窗边的围栏上,没有什么汹涌的回忆,没有思量什么抉择,只是空洞。楼顶的风声像是电波杂音,把一切都置身事外。窗外还是窗内这样的选择就交给重力吧,天亮了还要去生活。
被家人发现从窗边拽下来,哭了两声便戛然而止。生活还要继续,6点还要起来挤公车。
出国后,经常什么食欲也没有,平时只是勉强喝牛奶,饿了便整盒整盒的吃阿斯匹林。凌晨的时候拿着烟穿一件衬衣在郊外的校园里逛,空气中的凉意是唯一让我保持清醒的方式。尼古丁过敏经常体力不支坐在停车场的砂石地上,心里只是空洞。
他第一次发现我藏在钱夹里的刀片时,愤怒的将刀片扔出窗外,质问我为什么。
这么多年,哪怕一次,能说出自己的心情,我就不需要选择用生命的方式给心情找个出口。
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我感到了疲倦和软弱,而且突然想到了死的温柔和静默。—— 《爱在纽约》黄碧云

边缘

坐在阳台栏杆的边缘上,面对着千篇一律的夜景,贺天点燃了一支烟。
地面上没有一丝风,但二十六楼的高空中,风一如既往的凛冽。贺天只穿了一件单衣,风像似是冰做的针一般划过他身上的每一寸肌肤。寒冷,这是他剩下的唯一的感官,唯一提示着自己还活着的证明。
是深秋吗?应该是深秋吧…
不知道今天是哪一天,不知道这是他来到的第几个国家,不知道这是莫关山去世的第几年。
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贺天躺在床上看着书,见一抱着贺天的电脑激动的开黑。撇了一眼激动地张牙舞爪的见一,贺天发现窗外的秋海棠开花了。
又一年过去了么?贺天内心窃喜着,怀揣着不为他人所知的期盼。
吵闹的见一突然安静下来,拿下耳机转过身愣愣地看着贺天。
“贺天,莫关山死了。小红毛他…”
贺天只觉得脑袋一阵轰鸣,心脏像是被人狠狠地攥着,无法呼吸,无法思考。
“贺天?贺天!”
见一还在说着什么,可他什么都听不到。他的时间仿佛在某一刻停滞了。
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见一被莫关山去世的消息刺激,意识到人的一生命运叵测,不愿再等待下去。在见家大闹了一场,没有读完高中就跑回国,找展正希去了。
贺天没有反抗,听从家里安排读完大学,回去接管了贺家的公司。
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贺天还是那个贺天,天之骄子,成功完美,过着所有人都羡慕的生活。
只有贺天自己知道,他活得不开心。
每一次微笑,就好像有一条长长的伤口被撕开。每说一句话,都仿佛有一副利爪划过自己的喉咙。妻子的温柔像是带钩的鞭子一样抽打着自己的脊背,哪怕是两人间的情爱,也让他痛苦,身体内像是被一根满是倒刺的铁钩搅动着。
有不知名的东西在他体内日夜啃噬,一点点的,他正在变成一具躯壳。
然而,贺天还是那个贺天,至少在别人眼里还是。
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贺天的小孩满月了。他看着那个让所有人都愉悦的小生灵,微笑着,心里却只是空洞与罪恶。
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满月宴后,见一约贺天出来,扬言要为晋升奶爸的他庆祝。
见一还是那样天真烂漫,岁月无情倒是没能在他身上留下什么疤痕。还是那个样子,喝酒就会醉,喝醉就黏在展正希身上。
他们两个应该是在一起了吧。
贺天轻轻瞧了下两个人,目光又回到了灯红酒绿。炙热,发自内心的幸福居然那样炙热,叫人瞧一眼就快要熔化。贺天默默拿起手边的啤酒,想要安抚那片灼伤。
“贺天啊,你说如果莫关山还在,他会不会…”
“贺天?!”
见一顺着展正希的惊呼看过去。啤酒送到嘴边却僵在了那里,眼泪像断线的珠子,一滴一滴,无声地砸在地面上。贺天就那样无声地哭着。
“贺天…”见一不忍心,轻轻唤了一声。
贺天手里的酒瓶应声而坠,破碎的酒瓶声之后,是一个男人困兽般嘶吼的恸哭。
那次聚会之后不久,贺天消失了。
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逃避、自欺,麻痹着自己最脆弱的那根神经,多年来筑起来的铜墙铁壁,只是多年后提及名字,就溃不成军。
他知道自己爱莫关山,他只是不知道自己爱的那么深。
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他终于无法继续留在莫关山曾生活过的地方。
忽然之间,他失去了所有感官。除了源自体内无法抚慰的痛,他什么都感受不到,感觉不到饥饿,感觉不到疲惫。
永远停留在初中的莫关山是他唯一拥有的幻影和现实。
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他依靠着三明治和阿斯匹林走过了一个又一个国家。
当一个地方盛不住他对莫关山的回忆的时候,他就寻觅下个去处。
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望着远处泛红的天空,贺天扬手将烟蒂丢在身后的阳台上,迫不及待的触摸着黎明湿冷的空气。
他还没郑重地向莫关山告白啊。
他甚至都不知道莫关山是怎么死的。
他至今,还没有和莫关山有个决断。
他就这样被置弃在地狱的边缘,行尸走肉般永无天日。

贺天茫然地望着天边那抹耀眼的红,身体无法控制的前倾想要触碰,好美啊…
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梗记:
那时一个人刚出国在外没多久,去朋友的宿舍过周末,她在玩游戏,我在她的床上看《老人与海》。突然,她摘下耳机,很迷茫地对我说:我的一个朋友自杀了,跳楼。